Plenty of times have I found myself feeling mediocre or simply not enough. I think I posted about it - reflecting on my blind analysis of my self-prescribed lack of...ability. Days went by and weeks went by. Always in self-reflecting thoughts about how I wish I were more or I wish I could do more. … Continue reading Okay, okay.
Overcoming
Continuing on from before... At the end of 2025 I wrote about conjuring a new existence. A new "me." It wasn't something just to post about. I've been relentlessly thinking about this since before posting and even until now. 2026 just feels different. There are things I want to do and parts of my personality … Continue reading Overcoming
Conjuring a new existence
Have you ever wanted to kill... you? I don't mean the dramatic, possibly bloody version of actually physically getting rid of your own consciousness. I mean wanting to kill the you of today. Acquiring a new personality or at least destroying/revamping parts of your current? I've been continuously thinking of my own flaws. The things … Continue reading Conjuring a new existence
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日本語は以下 There's a book by James Clear called Atomic Habits. I wasn't much of a reader until recently going deeper in my self-development process. However, I decided to get into it and found that this book sheds light on a very valuable idea. How to become better at something, 1% at a time, every day. … Continue reading 1%
Quick update
日本語は以下 It's been two and a half years since I last wrote a post. I don't even know how I let that happen. I can easily say that I've been busy...but I mean it's been two and a half years. That's a lot of time to claim being busy. Long story short... ・I have been … Continue reading Quick update
Change your own mood // 自分の気分を変える
It's really easy to be lazy. It's convenient, there's no pressure, no sense of stress, no worries -- just your bed, Netflix, and whatever else you want. I was sick recently: I had a fever, sore throat; the typical things. After days of that, I became so lazy I pretty much used it as a … Continue reading Change your own mood // 自分の気分を変える
Against yourself / 自分に対して
日本語は下にある This one will be fast, but just a thought: We sometimes have goals on self-improvement. Maybe a new hobby to take up. A new challenge to try and face? A part of ourselves that we want to grow. It doesn't really matter what it is, but what matters is that we don't give up. … Continue reading Against yourself / 自分に対して
Spring! / 春！
The two Year mark (日本語は以下) Spring is here and I've settled into my new job by now. I've been in Japan now for two years. TWO! I still remember getting off the plane and knowing nothing about where I was, but I'm more than used to it at this point. My love for this place … Continue reading Spring! / 春！
Entering 2019 / 2019年の開始
ENGLISH (日本語は以下にあります） Flashbacks It's been a long time since I've posted, even though I promised myself I'd try to post weekly or at least monthly. I ended up busy enough that procrastinating the blog made sense. Leaving my job, moving (still looking for a new place), trying to settle into my new job, etc. When … Continue reading Entering 2019 / 2019年の開始
Monotone View / 単調視点
ENGLISH Some people see life as having just black and white. Good or bad. If something bad happens, it's the worst thing in the world and they let it become a part of them. They complain, play the victim card, blame others. Some people even start to use it as an excuse as to why … Continue reading Monotone View / 単調視点
Niko in Japan 