I just finished watching various channels on YouTube about 'Principles' and gathering the determination to become more than myself. I've come to realize it's not about motivation or the things I want. It's about looking to the future - at my future me. Who do I want to be? Where would my focus lie if … Continue reading It’s your life.
Okay, okay.
Plenty of times have I found myself feeling mediocre or simply not enough. I think I posted about it - reflecting on my blind analysis of my self-prescribed lack of...ability. Days went by and weeks went by. Always in self-reflecting thoughts about how I wish I were more or I wish I could do more. … Continue reading Okay, okay.
Overcoming
Continuing on from before... At the end of 2025 I wrote about conjuring a new existence. A new "me." It wasn't something just to post about. I've been relentlessly thinking about this since before posting and even until now. 2026 just feels different. There are things I want to do and parts of my personality … Continue reading Overcoming
Conjuring a new existence
Have you ever wanted to kill... you? I don't mean the dramatic, possibly bloody version of actually physically getting rid of your own consciousness. I mean wanting to kill the you of today. Acquiring a new personality or at least destroying/revamping parts of your current? I've been continuously thinking of my own flaws. The things … Continue reading Conjuring a new existence
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日本語は以下 There's a book by James Clear called Atomic Habits. I wasn't much of a reader until recently going deeper in my self-development process. However, I decided to get into it and found that this book sheds light on a very valuable idea. How to become better at something, 1% at a time, every day. … Continue reading 1%
Quick update
日本語は以下 It's been two and a half years since I last wrote a post. I don't even know how I let that happen. I can easily say that I've been busy...but I mean it's been two and a half years. That's a lot of time to claim being busy. Long story short... ・I have been … Continue reading Quick update
Change your own mood // 自分の気分を変える
It's really easy to be lazy. It's convenient, there's no pressure, no sense of stress, no worries -- just your bed, Netflix, and whatever else you want. I was sick recently: I had a fever, sore throat; the typical things. After days of that, I became so lazy I pretty much used it as a … Continue reading Change your own mood // 自分の気分を変える
Against yourself / 自分に対して
日本語は下にある This one will be fast, but just a thought: We sometimes have goals on self-improvement. Maybe a new hobby to take up. A new challenge to try and face? A part of ourselves that we want to grow. It doesn't really matter what it is, but what matters is that we don't give up. … Continue reading Against yourself / 自分に対して
Spring! / 春！
The two Year mark (日本語は以下) Spring is here and I've settled into my new job by now. I've been in Japan now for two years. TWO! I still remember getting off the plane and knowing nothing about where I was, but I'm more than used to it at this point. My love for this place … Continue reading Spring! / 春！
Entering 2019 / 2019年の開始
ENGLISH (日本語は以下にあります） Flashbacks It's been a long time since I've posted, even though I promised myself I'd try to post weekly or at least monthly. I ended up busy enough that procrastinating the blog made sense. Leaving my job, moving (still looking for a new place), trying to settle into my new job, etc. When … Continue reading Entering 2019 / 2019年の開始
Niko in Japan 